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i think i have outgrown the "blogging phase" almost everyone experiences sometimes in their early lives. actually, on hindsight, i never really wrote much anyway (given my laziness) but still, a blog is a blog lolz. also, i realised i havent written lately (not like i want to, anyway) and since im immensely bored, anything goes.

looking back at my blog posts, i realised i was quite a gay retard in 2007 or 2008 before becoming an angsty retard in 2009 (dark ages). i must say that this transition was triggered by some facets of life that put me off or let me down. whatever it is, 2010 has been good so far because i just care less/don't care about many more things. i find that life is basically nicer once you care less about stuffs.

from experience, i have found out (through the hard way) that not knowing when to give up is probably the biggest mistake any human can ever, ever make. seriously, i think this is the reason why i am who i am today. i am one who gives up kind of easily. for me, 1 reason to give up would cause me to re-consider/ignore 10 other reasons not to. this also explains why i don't rly care too much about many things - because i fear disappointment. i think its this fear of disappointment (is there a word for it?) that drives me (and people like me) to give up easily because it's easier to draw solace from your own choice of withdrawal rather than face impending doom. granted, there might be a chance of success in situations/scenarios like this but i'd rather not take the risk of failure and have my world come crashing down like so many times before.

here are some things i actually care about:
1. family
2. friends
3. studies (including piano)

notice there isn't much? that's cos there isn't anything else worth my concern. lol i think there was sth else i wanted to say but i think i forgot so nvm.

on a whole, i think 2010 so far has been pretty alright. there isn't much to look forward to actually with the exception of a few good movies like ironman2, shutterisland, ipman2 and blablablablablabla so on and so forth. when all else fails (to capture my attention), there's always the a-levels.

i hate people (most of them)

you know why i hate people? cos whenever i see most of them, i feel like bashing them up. why the fuck do such people exist to piss me off? most of the time, these people are those that i dont know but who cares? they deserve to be bashed up anyway.

screw everybody

naruto

have i ever said i hated naruto, that manga series? well, that's wrong now. cos i hate it to the core. naruto sucks. naruto is bullshit. i despise the series. in fact, i find it quite traumatising that i used to like naruto.

the manga and anime series were pretty cool until sasuke left this half-assed village called konoha. ever since, the next 400? chapters have been devoted to finding him or some other shit like that. you know what that sounds like to me? yeah, it sounds like a load of crap.

over the next 3 years or so (that's right, fags, 3 years), naruto just got suckier and shittier. and in the same 3 years, i heard/read about the storyline a few times and it never failed to put me to sleep. naruto > lullabies. i came to know that my favourite characters in the story had -GASP!- died. so what's the point of the story now that kakashi and itachi are dead, huh? the manga series is now devoid of its final semblances of coolness.

here's a little more crap about the stupid plot. there's this organisation called akatsuki which wants to unite all the tailed monsters (theres like 9 of these shits) and all the members are pretty mysterious. well, 3 years back, everyone was longing to know the identity of the organisation's leader. but suddenly, there's this shitfucker called tobi who joins akatsuki. and when finally the identity of the leader is revealed, it is at the same time revealed that he is, in actual fact, not really the leader but actually a puppet figure for tobi, who is the real leader. can someone say "wtf" out loud? what the hell is this shit supposed to be? a twist? it sucks so bad it sounds like a big lie told by a 2 year-old. SNORE.

OH but wait, did i mention that tobi is not really tobi? yes, that's right. he is the "banished something" or whatever from the uchiha clan, uchiha madara. apparently hes some old fag whos errr... planning to take over the world or some shit like that (cheesy overused plot). naruto still sucks.

and naruto himself is a big wuss. what the hell, everytime he fights, he ends up getting owned. theres no two ways about that. but suddenly, he will accidentally unleash the kyuubi inside him and he will win the fight. how corny is that? the biggest thing about that shit that pisses me off is that everytime he wins, he will give his signature smile and signature quote, "i have gotten stronger, i must protect my friends". fuck your friends, naruto and fuck you too. then this little fucker runs off to train with a pervert and learns all sorts of bullshit skills which he never uses at all. in fact, the only thing he uses in battles are his cloning skill, his luck and his cloning skill (yes he can use this skill more than once, or twice). in fact, his fights are so damn boring and so long and so full of philosophical shit that it pisses the shit out of everyone and not just me. naruto sucks.

and have i mentioned that naruto is gay? well i was on onemanga.com a few minutes ago as i was looking for the latest chapter of one piece (best manga series in the world) when i happened to chance upon naruto chapter 455. being curious, i clicked the link. after just one or two pages, naruto said, "sasuke is my friend, i loved those times we had together". WHAT THE FUCK?! this reinforces my point that the recurring theme in this series is that naruto wants to bring sasuke back to konoha all the time. im not saying that theres anything wrong with recurring themes, except if it recurs one time too many (ie, 400 chapters). fuck you naruto, stop being a closet faggot. if you want to be gay, just tell the whole damn world. i think the only shit in naruto's mind is his childhood friend sasuke and that's not being loyal, thats just being retarded and having too much time on his hands. guess what, people? naruto still sucks, period.

I HATE NARUTO, they should just cancel it and kill the author(s) <-- i dont believe so much bullshit could come out of one author alone.

i hate this

wtf man, this rly pisses me off so much i actually feel like bashing my comp up. everytime this shit happens i get so angry i cant explain how it feels. its so damn irritating. you know wtf just happened?

i picked invoker, solo-ed mid, farmed 72 creeps in 18 mins and denied 24 (without chaos meteor), got a kill (no deaths) and farmed out one bot 2 nulls 1 ultiorb. just when i thought my life was changing for the better, BAM! the screen freezes and the music stops.then i have to restart my computer. and rejoin garena. AND GET SO PISSED OFF I ACTUALLY START WRITING A POST.

my life really sucks dick.

part 2 of the big hatelist

guess what? its been about 4 days since i last posted. and guess what else? i still hate everything. this is the other half of the big hatelist i have.

26. simpsons
27. anyone who likes simpsons
28. mosquitoes
29. earthworms (worms in general)
30. centipedes
31. snails
32. examinations
33. teletubbies
34. gransazers
35. power rangers (or any other "heroes" with similar faggotry)
36. oatmeal bread
37. ed, edd and eddy (this cartoon rly pisses the shit out of me)
38. IR babboon (this cartoon pisses the shit out of me as well)
39. cow and chicken (this cartoon already pissed the shit out of me)
40. basically cartoon network in general
41. mamemo (i hate these faggot green cows who run around doing nothing besides shaking their udders at some small shitbag dressed in red)
42. south park (this shit sucks)
43. going to school
44. being in school
45. school
46. 20th century boys
47. bleach
48. naruto
49. faggots with stupid names (who calls themselves "sky" or "show" deserves to be shot)
50. typing with capital letters (cos i hate holding shift, so there)

and, of course, everything else.

50 things i hate

i am bored and i hate many things, so i will make use of these two factors and list down a narrow list of 50 things that i hate here, in no particular order of course.

1. people
2. shitty music
3. shitty clothes
4. shitty band names (think: "boys like girls" <--- if not? boys like boys? SNORE.)
5. pork
6. mutton
7. beef
8. broccoli
9. any kind of meat except fish/egg
10. golf
11. wrestling
12. pool
13. too sunny days
14. too rainy days
15. biology
16. chemistry
17. physics
18. waking up early
19. sleeping early
20. real madrid
21. liverpool
22. manchester city
23. chelsea
24. singapore television (most of it)
25. procrastination

i shall continue this list another day.

dream on (pun intended)

though cts are finally over, i am slightly angry. note that i refuse to use the phrase "i feel slightly angry" here because its a grossly overused phrase which means nothing anyway. besides, no one cares what anyone else feels. feelings are overrated, as is life. life is madly overrated.

and while im at it, lets not forget that dreams are the most overrated piece of bullcrap anyone can ever have the unpleasantry of having.

dreams only serve to make one crash and burn. of course, they have equally shady accomplices who go by the names of Ambition, Hope and of course, Wish. all of these evil masterminds work for a sinister unnamed organisation. if this organisation were to have a name, we would call it LIFE. cos life sucks, end of story.

you know the lyrics from the song in les miserables made famous by susan boyle (i dreamed a dream)? the lyrics says that "dreams were made and used and wasted" and "[...] tear your hopes apart and turn your dreams to shame". you know what i think? i think that these lyrics are clearly deluded.

now, you might ask: "why?" and i might answer: "because". because what? because you cant destroy dreams, hopes, ambitions or wishes. THEY destroy YOU. dreams, ambitions, hopes and wishes all have something in common with transfats (or whatever its called). you can forget about them, but they will always be there somewhere inside you. there is no way one can destroy his (i refuse to use "her"cos im sexist) own dreams because the only way to eliminate (note the careful choice of word here) them is to replace them with -oh, ho!- what else? ANOTHER dream/ambition/wish/hope/bullshit

these dreaded banes of lives (is there even a "boon of life"?) only serve to rip you apart from the inside. they leave you dreaming, hoping, wishing for even the most impossible of things, the most unlikely of events and the most improbable of chances. all because you believe (belief is overrated bullshit in my opinion as well). well you might say "hay i carn fulfil my childhood dreams imma so sad so ur wrong because dreams can b destroyed! :(" well, if youre one of those people, let me ask you these: when your dreams get supposedly "shattered", do you let go of them all at once? when your dreams are supposedly "unfulfillable", won't you be a thousand times sadder than your dream (fyi, dreams cant feel - theyre unfeeling bastards)?

as such, dreams 1-0 you. too bad.

i once had the displeasantry of having someone asked me about my ambition a few years back. despite knowing fully that my ambition/dream/wish/hope was totally 100% unfulfillable at that time, i foolishly said it (which i now regret). my dream was to one day play for manchester united football club. laugh, guys. upon realising the foolhardiness of stating my ambition, i quickly added that i knew it was impossible to fulfil and i should give up on it (smart choice, alvan).

much to my surprise, not only did the person not agree with me like all my friends do (they even laugh at me and thats what i would have liked), he (for simplicity's sake) even said that my ambition was ENTIRELY POSSIBLE as long as I WORKED HARD and had the FAITH AND BELIEF! NO SHIT, MANG! i can play for manchester united football club as long as i work hard and believed in my dream?! WOAH! guess what, super sleuth? there are probably thousands of kids out there in this world wanting to play for MUFC. so if everyone works hard and believes (yada yada), everyone gets to play for MUFC? nice try, shatner.

so anyway i got so pissed off at that person i decided not to talk to him (again, for simplicity's sake) anymore. end of story.

the next person that says my hopes are totally accomplishable or achievable, im gonna show him/her this:
















wish (bah!) of the day: guess what? wishes dont come true anyway so im going to stop being an ignorant nub and quit wishing