dream on (pun intended)

though cts are finally over, i am slightly angry. note that i refuse to use the phrase "i feel slightly angry" here because its a grossly overused phrase which means nothing anyway. besides, no one cares what anyone else feels. feelings are overrated, as is life. life is madly overrated.

and while im at it, lets not forget that dreams are the most overrated piece of bullcrap anyone can ever have the unpleasantry of having.

dreams only serve to make one crash and burn. of course, they have equally shady accomplices who go by the names of Ambition, Hope and of course, Wish. all of these evil masterminds work for a sinister unnamed organisation. if this organisation were to have a name, we would call it LIFE. cos life sucks, end of story.

you know the lyrics from the song in les miserables made famous by susan boyle (i dreamed a dream)? the lyrics says that "dreams were made and used and wasted" and "[...] tear your hopes apart and turn your dreams to shame". you know what i think? i think that these lyrics are clearly deluded.

now, you might ask: "why?" and i might answer: "because". because what? because you cant destroy dreams, hopes, ambitions or wishes. THEY destroy YOU. dreams, ambitions, hopes and wishes all have something in common with transfats (or whatever its called). you can forget about them, but they will always be there somewhere inside you. there is no way one can destroy his (i refuse to use "her"cos im sexist) own dreams because the only way to eliminate (note the careful choice of word here) them is to replace them with -oh, ho!- what else? ANOTHER dream/ambition/wish/hope/bullshit

these dreaded banes of lives (is there even a "boon of life"?) only serve to rip you apart from the inside. they leave you dreaming, hoping, wishing for even the most impossible of things, the most unlikely of events and the most improbable of chances. all because you believe (belief is overrated bullshit in my opinion as well). well you might say "hay i carn fulfil my childhood dreams imma so sad so ur wrong because dreams can b destroyed! :(" well, if youre one of those people, let me ask you these: when your dreams get supposedly "shattered", do you let go of them all at once? when your dreams are supposedly "unfulfillable", won't you be a thousand times sadder than your dream (fyi, dreams cant feel - theyre unfeeling bastards)?

as such, dreams 1-0 you. too bad.

i once had the displeasantry of having someone asked me about my ambition a few years back. despite knowing fully that my ambition/dream/wish/hope was totally 100% unfulfillable at that time, i foolishly said it (which i now regret). my dream was to one day play for manchester united football club. laugh, guys. upon realising the foolhardiness of stating my ambition, i quickly added that i knew it was impossible to fulfil and i should give up on it (smart choice, alvan).

much to my surprise, not only did the person not agree with me like all my friends do (they even laugh at me and thats what i would have liked), he (for simplicity's sake) even said that my ambition was ENTIRELY POSSIBLE as long as I WORKED HARD and had the FAITH AND BELIEF! NO SHIT, MANG! i can play for manchester united football club as long as i work hard and believed in my dream?! WOAH! guess what, super sleuth? there are probably thousands of kids out there in this world wanting to play for MUFC. so if everyone works hard and believes (yada yada), everyone gets to play for MUFC? nice try, shatner.

so anyway i got so pissed off at that person i decided not to talk to him (again, for simplicity's sake) anymore. end of story.

the next person that says my hopes are totally accomplishable or achievable, im gonna show him/her this:
















wish (bah!) of the day: guess what? wishes dont come true anyway so im going to stop being an ignorant nub and quit wishing